Since last year and the beginning of this blog, I have been thrust into the World of travel blogging. This has been not only an incredibly rewarding experience, but also a very challenging one. Believe it or not, blogging can at times be quite competitive and you are constantly comparing yourself to others. Some people have more followers, some have travelled to more countries and some and more aesthetically pleasing than me!
I have been pretty open about my struggles with my weight and my body image and coming to terms with not being “perfect” is difficult for most women. Now add that level of self-criticism to the World of Travel blogging and it can be a huge mental battle.
You see, as bloggers, we are putting our thoughts, our works and our image out for the World to view, browse and ultimately judge. As bloggers and writers we assume that people want to read what we have to say. But sometimes they don’t. Every time we publish a post on our blog we are asking people to read it and by that token we are personally exposing ourselves every day. We request constant feedback through hits, views, likes, shares, retweets etc. Whether we like it or not, having a blog is basically marketing yourself as a brand. I am prepared for this when it comes to my writing, but my image is a different story.
The Beautiful Bloggers
Through my journey in starting up my blog and promoting it, I naturally turned to follow successful travel bloggers to see what I could be doing to make my blog the best it could be. So, on social media, I followed all of the big travel accounts in the same genre – 20 something female travel bloggers. The problem with this is that the majority of this group of people are young, tan, slim and ultimately beautiful. I on the other hand am pale, “curvy” and now no longer in that 20’s age bracket.
It certainly isn’t easy to look at picture after picture of beautiful women, posing in bikinis on some anonymous beach and pretend that it doesn’t make you doubt yourself. I personally have not donned a bikini since I was 15 years old. It is also no secret that a picture of a beautiful person will get more engagement on social media. Sunkissed Goddesses wearing designer clothing fill up my timeline on a daily basis. So I began thinking that I needed to work extra hard; to write more interesting posts and to set myself aside from the pretty girls. I know now that this was a load of rubbish.
It Doesn’t Matter
One of the things that I have learnt over the past year is that none of this really matters. If I was going to write and blog and be honest to myself and the people who read my blog, then I had to begin embracing the person I am. I needed to realize that there are so many women out there, like me, who are struggling with their image and I need to be a role model for them.
I will always work hard to be the best possible version of myself and this is never easy. I have come a long way, but there is a long way to go with getting to my goal weight, but in the mean time I have learned to feel comfortable in my own skin. My body is my body. Yes it is bigger than it should be; yes my teeth are not perfect and I am pale as a snowdrop, but it is me!
The Real Me
So as a promise to my readers, I pledge to always show my true self. Some days I will look better than others because some days I feel better than others. Some days I have my hair and makeup done and some days I have more important things to be doing. But most importantly, I promise to continue to explore the World for as long as I can and make sure I feel good while I’m doing it!
I would like to invite you All to do the same x